I've struggled for a long time in writing this review, so much so that I almost gave up. Reviews of Tanya's music have always been the hardest for me to write; I have always felt that there is so much depth, both in terms of mechanics and emotions to every piece of work that I still struggle to do it justice in just one body of words. But with the release of her "Aphasia" experimental album, I struggled even more. I listened over and over and over and over until I couldn't take it anymore, and tried this routine several times over, letting myself fall into the music and trying to absorb it as much as I could. But still nothing. Until I realised that for the most part, my struggle with trying to review this album lay in the fact that it was an experimental album by nature, and that I therefore was unable to categorise it, unlike many other albums I had reviewed in the past. So naturally, this thought led me to the conclusion that Tanya's album's meaning lay in the lack of need to categorise it in terms of genre or any specific musical theory terms. But now even more than ever, I was at loss about what to write. However, I chose to push on, persevering as I strongly believed (and still do) that Tanya's album, like a textbook would teach me something of value. And the further I delved in this direction, the more the pieces of the puzzle started to come together.
With a mix of experimental tools such as sampled beats and ephemeral vocal backing a as the foundation of her album's musical theme, Tanya has with this new album changed the rules of the game completely, operating on a higher playing field than I could easily put words to. So I just decided to go into this album review as is, or as a saying in Chinese goes, "凭感觉”which means go with your gut. And what my gut is telling me is that I feel something from this album; emotions which are dark, introverted yet familiar. I do not feel an overwhelming passion for this album's theme, but that I believe is part of the beauty of it. "Aphasia" is a term referring to people who have no voice; what Tanya wished to convey through this album was a reflection of the modern day urban citizen, walking through streets filled with people, yet losing a sense of interaction which makes us human. Each song in the album is like a part of us as silent beings, bringing to light the complex and subtle mix of emotions that we like to bunch together and refer to as normality. If you're like me, I'm sure you feel it too. A large dose of 'I don't give a damn', a thimbleful of anxiety for the future, and always, that yearning for love amongst more than a handful of dysfunctional relationships.